Trust is such an interesting intangible thing in which we place it and how it’s placed, in what, as if it needs a pedestal or safe container or containment. Much like time is and it keeps on ticking, ticking, ticking, into the future.
Or slipping rather…
I try to keep up, I do. My last post was a bearing of the soul, a little sharing of my internal struggles and path journeying. This post brings us back to the good ol’ Goreblot fortunes routine! I’m in high spirits that I will maintain a regular thing. I just have to snuggle into a spot. What say you? Did Fortune Fridays work for you? We’ll figure it out 😉 Let’s get on with it shall we?!
It’s been too long, and now as I write, I feel most alive today where I felt the first kiss of spring on my skin, and a rejuvenation to my soul. When the air feels clean like this, and everything thawed, there’s no holding back from feeling inspired and motivated.
There’s just a whole bunch more bounce in the step. No resistance, but an excited ease into everything. Sure, it may be unnatural to have such a climate in February, where the ground was frozen solid but last week. I found myself walking over an ice-laden beach for a morning stroll. Treacherous. And not much before that I was walking through a snow blizzard along the shores, though still I witnessed some brave souls out there in the waters paddle boarding in the winter surf.
Now, people are out enjoying the rays in mild weather and our calendared seasons are starting to write themselves.
Our environment is changing and our climate, there is no denying the evidence as it stares directly at us. I try to make sure I get outside as much as possible to commune with nature and drink in what I can. Observing the changing hues of the sky, the blustery winds, the animals and bugs scurrying about. There’s so much to learn. I finally (I say finally because I have been wanting to for quite some time) took up studying moths last year. An opportunity unravelled for me where I was lucky to study with other amateurs as well as the pros outside and under the stars. We looked at white sheets for hours, this is how mothing is done. Looking, pointing, taking pictures, writing down the names, awkwardly leafing through the pages of the moth guide. It’s an entire world worth exploring, and that’s just one fraction.
Eventually, it will be birding, bugging, gardening…
We are so caught up in this world of attainment, consumerism, status, life marking milestones, as well as fighting for ‘rest’ in front of screens, the ubiquitous term of ‘adulting’ slithers in, then we start to lose touch of what’s right under our noses. Other than our smart phones or touchy screen pad things. We want to feel accomplishment, but sometimes it’s hard to decipher just what that is and what that means.
With that being said, let’s look into your fortunes and see what kind of guidance a Goreblot can offer. Think of an issue or question you may have and then listen to your first gut impression by picking one of these words: 1. Bile 2. Beget 3. Blasphemy. Then scroll down to find your corresponding Goreblot paintomancy fortune.
If you chose 1. Bile
Bile. Delicious digestive fluids. Breakdown and purify those little nuggets that enter in. There’s too much of something that’s wreaking havoc on your system. You need to take stock and figure out what’s going on with you. Or within you.
Your body has layers of accumulated toxins that dance in your fluid streams, vessel streams. Weaving and bobbing, circulating. These toxins catch, pile up, becoming a thick, tar-like mass.
These fluids dance and flit around, dispersing into finer bubbles, gradually becoming more emulsified into one contained, mayonnaise-like fluid. Thick, and spreadable.
Retracing the ingredients and the steps before they all were blended up is what is needed. It’ll be a bit like remembering every step you made in an improv. You acted without thinking, but your body knows and takes stock, it takes all the field notes and then starts reading them back to you. The notes might not make entire sense, translation running through a sort of thick, coagulated, line of gobbledygook.
So it’s up to you to take a step back and simplify. Subtract some ingredients for a while and give your system a break. Perhaps, use one choice ingredient to help unclog and drain your overtaxed pipes. It’s only a matter of time before you start oozing, leaking and/or shutting down as your body is want to do.
When it’s had enough.
Take care! and find a cleansing tonic to expel the buildup, take it consistently until you start seeing improvements. Just stop, rewind, be kind and minimize and simplify. Subtract more, rather than adding more. A simple equation to balance yourself out again.
Find out what seeds you’re eating as a past time activity and you’ll find out what you’re growing…
If you chose 2. Beget
Beget. Beholden. Betrothed. Be. The social pressures of yesteryear are gone. Who are you tricking but yourself? To anticipate what others are going to do and how they are going to react, does not leave space for unpredictable variables.
You hold yourself down anticipating, calculating and trying to predict, making your moves according to how other people may or may not act. Dancing, you are dancing around seemingly strategically. However, you are so not in control. You cannot predict the outcome or the reaction of another as far as you think you can, and in fact, not only are you holding yourself back and giving yourself a disservice, you are not giving any chance on that other person or people. It’s a disrespect. A failure of trust.
Forget thinking you are doing any good trying to make the best step because at this point, you haven’t made any steps. There’s no rush, but just know you won’t get anywhere if you stand still or backtrack and calculate repeatedly. Backtracking will just make you step backwards even further.
Michael Jackson’s moonwalk may appear backwards (or forwards), but pay attention to the physical direction he’s taking. It’s only backwards because he’s not facing the direction he’s going in (or is he going in a direction? or standing still?). Overall, the moonwalk is creating an illusion, of sliding backwards while pushing forward. The illusionist, however, is still going in the direction he’s intended. Tricking you. Smoothing over things. You may put forth all these steps, but ultimately you are still choosing the direction you are going in. So perhaps take the moonwalk as a cue in how you approach your issue – take the steps and look at it from an entirely different direction. You may have to reverse or invert. Where you may be looking out and back, you may need to look forward and in instead. And perhaps, stop tricking yourself. You may be creating all this illusion, but still not moving anywhere and that’s what you’ve decided unbeknownst to yourself.
Most importantly, follow the direction that suits you and please don’t worry about stepping on any toes. Other people have just as much will and an agenda of their own to move and get out of the way or go somewhere else entirely. Or perhaps dance with you. Whatever the case may be. I know it’s not easy, but, trust.
Go forward, be smooth, are you ok? are you ok? I’d say you’re ok…
If you chose 3. Blasphemy
Blasphemy. Against a grain. Spitting on belief. Core centre. Spiral. Have you ever walked a straight line?
No two paths are the same and you are not a bad person to follow what is true to you. But know your impulses, know your tendencies and most importantly, be aware of something that’s much bigger than you. Whatever that looks like to you. Whether it’s a galaxy universe, a deity or god, mother nature, there’s a whole sphere or atmosphere that is beyond your centre. Stroking the inside so much can create these habit loops, these spirals of repetition that find you following your impulses without a conscious mind.
If you want to make your way out, break the chain. You need some support and you need some belief. With support and belief comes trust. It’s so hard, it seems, to trust these days isn’t it? As it’s a way of leaving ourselves vulnerable to unknowns and intangibles. But if you can decide to believe and trust, there can be a sense of relief that you fall into, as it alleviates stressful questions.
Have you ever walked a straight line? Try it. Try a walking meditation where you aim to walk straight, focusing on the line that draws from your feet, your body and how it progresses forward. If you’re on a sidewalk and there’s people you may need to be slow and steady, be aware of your surroundings but still manage your ease and focus. Notice other people move around you, notice the energy they carry and pass it by mindfully aware. Keep to your straight line as much as possible, breathing deep and relaxed. Gaze softened, but still managing to look further ahead to a vanishing point. Observe and feel what is happening in your peripheries.
Remember to notice your breath. Notice when your breath starts to hold or notice where it stops. Notice what thoughts are happening, or what exterior factor is influencing your breath. Finally, trust in your direction, the line and moving forward. Observe the things and people passing through your sphere and remember the sphere that you are on, the Earth. We are all passing through. Your support is your belief and your unabashed trust.
I hope these Goreblots see you well into the weekend. If you have any questions you can find me here Have a good one!
Love and Guts,