Will you be?
“We may think will-power is involved, but more likely…change is due to want power. Wanting the new addiction more than the old one. Wanting the new me in preference to the person I am now.” ~George A. Sheehan, physician and senior athlete.
We all know the old idiom “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”. In the 1600’s it was slightly different, To him that will, ways are not wanting. We want will! But sometimes our ways get the better of us and then we have to find where that will went to.
It’s divvying up our stores of will and pushing to find answers because we want something badly enough. Willpower is a muscle we have to flex and strengthen in order to make things work in our favour. And depending how you’ve accumulated certain habits that get in the way, your will powers might have weakened. But if we believe in something wholeheartedly enough, if we allow ourselves some faith, it can be enough to drive us to our goals. It’s that word ‘enough’, that tips or overflows the needing of something to happen, that it’s just enough to push us.
Change is going to happen whether we like it or not. There is always a force unseen tinkering with our daily lives and expectations. How we deal with these forces and potentially make some our own, is completely up to our will.
If you find you are struggling to find a way, know that the struggle is a good sign, it’s a sign that you want to make actionable change, you have the will! It is in you, and even though it may take time to find the way, and find the force within you, it will come out and it will be glorious!
To help with finding ways, I managed to think of looking up an app for focus as I have terrible struggles with my own focus, personally. Keeping on task is something I truly have a hard time with and so my will is there to change this and transform this. You poke at something long enough with a stick, eventually it’s going to budge, even if you just poked it with the stick a bit harder.
So here’s the app I was talking about. I’m using it now as I type and rattle on. I’ve tried an egg timer but I keep forgetting to think about using it. And since these are times of digital habits, it makes sense to just go with the tools that we easily reach for anyways. Why make the fight harder, when you can be slightly sneaky about it?
I’m still fresh to it, but the chunking of time is real clever and makes things manageable. The ticking sounds help put a cadence to my focus as well.
And one more I discovered to try using is a brain training app.
This one seems to be good to train those uncomfortable places, slowly reach new goals each day, only takes a moment of your time and could be used when you are in transit or waiting in line or something.
The goal is always to find ways to improve ourselves. Finding ways to poke around and explore and discover. If you’re finding you’re stuck, instead of focusing on all the things that make you stuck, try a different approach, a sneaky approach, a teeny tiny thing you can implement each day. And if you’d like some guidance, try a Goreblot down below and see where it takes you!
On to the Goreblot fortunes!
A while back I posted….
Think of an issue you would like to address, listen to your gut, then pick a number and scroll down. Your corresponding Goreblot fortune awaits you!
If you chose #1….
Body Slam. What’s your jam? How do you move day to day? Do you slouche? Do you hunch? Are you sitting mostly? Standing? Do you find certain body parts protrude more than you’d like?
Posture is something everyone battles with. How you are holding yourself is a symptom to how you train your body the entire day. If you train your body to sit mostly, maybe with a wallet in your back pocket, you are training your hips to be imbalanced, having one higher than the other. This eventually leads to other problems down the road that will involve your back, your spine.
With these odd trainings, your body will compensate the imbalances in weird ways. Indeed, it takes work to train the body opposite to what you’ve been unknowingly training it to do. But even 5 minutes per day of an exercise to counter the imbalance can do wonders.
Every movement you make is a type of practice for your body. A physical training. That is, if you are sitting most of your days, you are training your body to be sedentary. Low activity.
Your physical training directly corresponds to your mental health. That is, your body will translate what’s going on through your brain, through your body in various symptoms. Stress is a big one and your body will let you know pretty easily when you are stressed. But it can also be sneaky because we often don’t think we are stressed.
Not getting enough sleep? Watching Netflix too late in the evening? Checking your email before or even in bed? Watch out for these habits, as artificial lighting will translate and accumulate into your body’s responses to other things you throw at it.
If you want to read a little more on the effects of light on the body subject: http://www.lightingservices.com/lighting-human-biological-behaviour
Here’s a song to get you tumbling and tinkering around in your body:
If you chose #2…
Thick and syrupy. Mind sluggish and scattered. Combating the drain, fighting for energy levels, will-power, and your attention. Your need to focus. Everything is an interruption. Hunger, boredom, children, pets and phone calls. If you’re on the computer or your phone, your attention and time seems doomed. Your will-power has finite ability and you only have so much supply of it in one day.
Then, habits kick in, you go on automatic pilot, and you find yourself plugged in. Remember the 1999 science fiction movie, The Matrix? Where everybody’s perceived reality is actually a simulated world that they are plugged into called, the matrix. Human beings subdued by robots that use their internal energy sources for electrical power. Not too far off from where we are today. (social media is like simulated worlds, our energy goes into them, and data gets collected for companies and ads- robots collecting energy!).
You are still opting to be in that simulated world. That’s ok, but you have a feeling and you know there’s more out there. If you could just break free.
I encourage you to pull the plug. Turn off the switch. Go for a walk with just you and nature. Sit in the dark with just yourself and meditate. You will probably start to experience an itchy, creeping feeling when you first attempt to practice this. It is only anxiousness, fear, something you learned, and it’s bubbling up because you are attempting to break it’s cycle.
That moment when you get washed over with these feelings, thoughts flood in, future and past lists of things well up in your brain, all syrupy and drowning your sense of peace. Drowning your awareness of the unthreatening present. All that energetic heat you are letting bundle in your nervous system and giving power to, you are giving power to the matrix. We all do it, every once and a while, we let our energy go in places that are simulated. Simulated by our own brains, simulated by technology. Navigating through screens, and unseen depths, and fears.
Just know, you have the power to unplug. You can take that red pill and awaken. Release those simulated worlds that have a hold on you, and find your powerful true nature. In the present.
Here’s a little red pill song anthem to get you going:
If you chose #3…
Vague parasite. Connecting with people. Absent crush. Writhing inside while around people who writhe on the outside. When alone things about yourself emerge.
There will always be this little thing that eats at you. Things you should have done, things you should have said. The little ‘what if’ parasite. It takes you from yourself. Takes you from totally being free and being yourself around others.
The freeze, the filter, the holding your truth back. The worry that something about you may trigger another person’s sensitivities.
Truth is, everyone has their own little parasites. And they all have different combinations of them, picking them up along the way from different environments, different sandboxes of experiences. How much are those little worms holding you back? How much do you tip toe around other people to avoid confrontation and to avoid their parasites?
If you opened your mouth a little more, things will come out, they will disperse. You cannot control something once it’s outside of you. Once something has left your being, an action, a word, whatever, it is no longer just yours. Other people will react, other people will act accordingly around your stuff. That is not to say, don’t take responsibility for your actions. It is to say, that you cannot control what other people are going to do about it. Only you can continually work on you.
Try practicing less filtering. Remember those sandbox days when there were no worries, and there was only sand to play with. Those castles you made and then tore down. You may have torn someone else’s sand creation down, either on purpose or by accident. But there was always sand, there were always hands to rebuild those castles.
Impermanence permeates life. The struggles and suffering you create and cling to, is just that, a clinging. But everything passes. Sand gets washed away.
Parasites can get the better of us, so here’s a song to shake some of them out…
I hope these Goreblots meet you well! Contemplate and release this Libra Full Moon. And if you need, don’t be afraid to get in touch!
Love and Guts,