When And Where There’s A Will Goreblot Fortune

Will you be?

“We may think will-power is involved, but more likely…change is due to want power.  Wanting the new addiction more than the old one.  Wanting the new me in preference to the person I am now.” ~George A. Sheehan, physician and senior athlete.

We all know the old idiom “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”.  In the 1600’s it was slightly different, To him that will, ways are not wanting.  We want will! But sometimes our ways get the better of us and then we have to find where that will went to.

It’s divvying up our stores of will and pushing to find answers because we want something badly enough.  Willpower is a muscle we have to flex and strengthen in order to make things work in our favour.  And depending how you’ve accumulated certain habits that get in the way, your will powers might have weakened.  But if we believe in something wholeheartedly enough, if we allow ourselves some faith, it can be enough to drive us to our goals.  It’s that word ‘enough’, that tips or overflows the needing of something to happen, that it’s just enough to push us.

Change is going to happen whether we like it or not.  There is always a force unseen tinkering with our daily lives and expectations.  How we deal with these forces and potentially make some our own, is completely up to our will.

If you find you are struggling to find a way, know that the struggle is a good sign, it’s a sign that you want to make actionable change, you have the will! It is in you, and even though it may take time to find the way, and find the force within you, it will come out and it will be glorious!

To help with finding ways, I managed to think of looking up an app for focus as I have terrible struggles with my own focus, personally.  Keeping on task is something I truly have a hard time with and so my will is there to change this and transform this.  You poke at something long enough with a stick, eventually it’s going to budge, even if you just poked it with the stick a bit harder.

So here’s the app I was talking about.  I’m using it now as I type and rattle on.  I’ve tried an egg timer but I keep forgetting to think about using it.  And since these are times of digital habits, it makes sense to just go with the tools that we easily reach for anyways.  Why make the fight harder, when you can be slightly sneaky about it?

https://itunes.apple.com/ca/app/focus-keeper-work-study-timer/id830466924?mt=8

I’m still fresh to it, but the chunking of time is real clever and makes things manageable.  The ticking sounds help put a cadence to my focus as well.

And one more I discovered to try using is a brain training app.

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.lumoslabs.lumosity&hl=en

This one seems to be good to train those uncomfortable places, slowly reach new goals each day, only takes a moment of your time and could be used when you are in transit or waiting in line or something.

The goal is always to find ways to improve ourselves.  Finding ways to poke around and explore and discover.  If you’re finding you’re stuck, instead of focusing on all the things that make you stuck, try a different approach, a sneaky approach, a teeny tiny thing you can implement each day.  And if you’d like some guidance, try a Goreblot down below and see where it takes you!

On to the Goreblot fortunes!

A while back I posted….

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Think of an issue you would like to address, listen to your gut, then pick a number and scroll down.  Your corresponding Goreblot fortune awaits you!

If you chose #1….

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Body Slam.  What’s your jam?  How do you move day to day? Do you slouche?  Do you hunch? Are you sitting mostly? Standing? Do you find certain body parts protrude more than you’d like?

Posture is something everyone battles with.  How you are holding yourself is a symptom to how you train your body the entire day.  If you train your body to sit mostly, maybe with a wallet in your back pocket, you are training your hips to be imbalanced, having one higher than the other.  This eventually leads to other problems down the road that will involve your back, your spine.

With these odd trainings, your body will compensate the imbalances in weird ways.  Indeed, it takes work to train the body opposite to what you’ve been unknowingly training it to do.  But even 5 minutes per day of an exercise to counter the imbalance can do wonders.

Every movement you make is a type of practice for your body.  A physical training.  That is, if you are sitting most of your days, you are training your body to be sedentary.  Low activity.

Your physical training directly corresponds to your mental health.  That is, your body will translate what’s going on through your brain, through your body in various symptoms.  Stress is a big one and your body will let you know pretty easily when you are stressed.  But it can also be sneaky because we often don’t think we are stressed.

Not getting enough sleep? Watching Netflix too late in the evening? Checking your email before or even in bed? Watch out for these habits, as artificial lighting will translate and accumulate into your body’s responses to other things you throw at it.

If you want to read a little more on the effects of light on the body subject: http://www.lightingservices.com/lighting-human-biological-behaviour

Here’s a song to get you tumbling and tinkering around in your body:

If you chose #2…
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Thick and syrupy.  Mind sluggish and scattered.  Combating the drain, fighting for energy levels, will-power, and your attention.  Your need to focus.  Everything is an interruption.  Hunger, boredom, children, pets and phone calls.  If you’re on the computer or your phone, your attention and time seems doomed.  Your will-power has finite ability and you only have so much supply of it in one day.

Then, habits kick in, you go on automatic pilot, and you find yourself plugged in.  Remember the 1999 science fiction movie, The Matrix? Where everybody’s perceived reality is actually a simulated world that they are plugged into called, the matrix.  Human beings subdued by robots that use their internal energy sources for electrical power.  Not too far off from where we are today. (social media is like simulated worlds, our energy goes into them, and data gets collected for companies and ads- robots collecting energy!).

You are still opting to be in that simulated world.  That’s ok, but you have a feeling and you know there’s more out there.  If you could just break free.

I encourage you to pull the plug.  Turn off the switch.  Go for a walk with just you and nature.  Sit in the dark with just yourself and meditate.  You will probably start to experience an itchy, creeping feeling when you first attempt to practice this.  It is only anxiousness, fear, something you learned, and it’s bubbling up because you are attempting to break it’s cycle.

That moment when you get washed over with these feelings, thoughts flood in, future and past lists of things well up in your brain, all syrupy and drowning your sense of peace.  Drowning your awareness of the unthreatening present.  All that energetic heat you are letting bundle in your nervous system and giving power to, you are giving power to the matrix.  We all do it, every once and a while, we let our energy go in places that are simulated.  Simulated by our own brains, simulated by technology.  Navigating through screens, and unseen depths, and fears.

Just know, you have the power to unplug.  You can take that red pill and awaken.  Release those simulated worlds that have a hold on you, and find your powerful true nature.  In the present.

Here’s a little red pill song anthem to get you going:

If you chose #3…
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Vague parasite.  Connecting with people.  Absent crush.  Writhing inside while around people who writhe on the outside.  When alone things about yourself emerge.

There will always be this little thing that eats at you.  Things you should have done, things you should have said.  The little ‘what if’ parasite.  It takes you from yourself.  Takes you from totally being free and being yourself around others.

The freeze, the filter, the holding your truth back.  The worry that something about you may trigger another person’s sensitivities.

Truth is, everyone has their own little parasites.  And they all have different combinations of them, picking them up along the way from different environments, different sandboxes of experiences. How much are those little worms holding you back? How much do you tip toe around other people to avoid confrontation and to avoid their parasites?

If you opened your mouth a little more, things will come out, they will disperse.  You cannot control something once it’s outside of you.  Once something has left your being, an action, a word, whatever, it is no longer just yours.  Other people will react, other people will act accordingly around your stuff.  That is not to say, don’t take responsibility for your actions.  It is to say, that you cannot control what other people are going to do about it.  Only you can continually work on you.

Try practicing less filtering. Remember those sandbox days when there were no worries, and there was only sand to play with.  Those castles you made and then tore down.  You may have torn someone else’s sand creation down, either on purpose or by accident.  But there was always sand, there were always hands to rebuild those castles.

Impermanence permeates life.  The struggles and suffering you create and cling to, is just that, a clinging.  But everything passes.  Sand gets washed away.

Parasites can get the better of us, so here’s a song to shake some of them out…

I hope these Goreblots meet you well! Contemplate and release this Libra Full Moon. And if you need, don’t be afraid to get in touch!

Love and Guts,
Doc G.

Go-go Aerial Goreblot

Life is like a continuous adventure of fleshing out perspectives, self, and belief systems. One moment you’re so sure of your path and have your sights on something, another you’re lost in all the distracting details of decision making and prioritization. Your views get snagged on the cloth of another’s belief systems only to be ripped away again, and you find yourself mending that tear so it won’t completely scrape your ego. Through the process of that mending, you find your ego waning as a hidden love for the process emerges. The steps of enlightenment, humbled by thoughts gathered and released, letting go and dissipating. Knowing that you don’t have to hold on so tightly, it’s not going anywhere, it may just change. And it will change, and you will change if you let yourself. You really can change if you want to.

Many times we’ll come across challenges of other people’s perceptions and we’ll have to navigate accordingly. Our internal worlds sometimes evolving faster than the outer and it may seem like that outer world is moving at a snail’s pace. It’s remembering the power of thought and energy and keeping those in check that could be your saving grace. You are your thoughts and what you release is what is exchanged, a vibration of a certain frequency that either draws someone near or pushes them away. Similarly to what you digest through your body, something of a low nutritional vibration is going to deplete your energy source and what you consume may drive YOU away from your own mind and body – fog, brain fuzz, negative emotions, confusion, illness, dis-ease. Being aware of what you consume spiritually, mentally, and physically takes practice and commitment. It is work, but often we misconceive this work as a gift that someone else may have and not us, we may believe that it’s only the privileged that have access, the privilege of time and money, the privilege of strength or genetic make-up. But it’s that very perception that gets us into trouble, as we get wrought with comparing ourselves to others when we haven’t got a single clue where that person comes from and what their experiences have been and what they have to deal with. We are so assumptive. We cling onto the coat tails of so many beliefs that drag us along mercilessly, as victims of our own egos. If I believe this, this is what it means for me, therefore I am this type of person and not that, because to be that type of person would be lunacy. To consider that information, when so many other things have been mythically debunked, I’d be silly, I’d be a fool. And no one wants to be a fool.

What information do you instantly shoot down? and why? What facts do you think you actually know and what’s made you believe them? Have you experienced something first hand? have you seen it broken down molecularly, tested it out in experiments of your own? or was it something you heard from a source? is it a trusted source?

Investigative curiosity is a type of empowerment. Try wielding your own answers and results. Why just take some other source’s word for it? Let’s see what your guts have to say.

A little while ago, I asked you to choose your animal of flight…
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So let’s see what their messages are!

If you chose 1. Opalite Owl…
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It is time to raise your vibration. What does that mean exactly? According to the opalite owl, it’s shedding previous knowledge that has been sticking on you for quite awhile. It is time to evolve to something higher. This may mean a higher education, not necessarily in schooling, but the type of education that has you reaching and struggling at the tip of your brain, increasing connections of awareness, creating new links, new avenues, new streams.

This is also a time to nurture yourself and let yourself be drawn to nurturing things. Cultivate a collection of therapies that work with your senses. If you’ve been drawn to sounds lately, music, you’re feeding your auditory sense – what sounds lift you up? What sorts of instrumentals have you dancing on the wires of your internal mind?
Consider your other senses. Have you paid attention to what you’ve been smelling lately? Do you stop to smell flowers? cook to create nostalgic flavours in the kitchen? sip in the aroma of the coffee bean in the mornings to stimulate and awaken your soul? or the lovely fragrance of a selection of floral herbal tea?

Your well aware of touch at the moment, your hands are feeling the grit and grime. The daily grasping of physical things. A wet shower, the sticky sweat, a dry clean sock. And your eyes see an overwhelming amount of pictures and views on the daily, almost too much to process, your brain scrambling to file away what’s important, what can be glimpsed at and what you need to come back to.

But let’s get back to smell. It enters you in a visceral way, it toys out your memories, it also creates new ones. Play with this, play with nurturing ways to use scent to empower and enrich your soul – try a bubble bath with an essential oil, buy yourself some flowers or better yet, get outside somewhere with surrounding trees, and breathe.

Have a listen:

If you chose 2. Bat…
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The night sonic, throwing a pitch. Wichita? A night time channel, where blindness is in the day. Trust, let go. All these posts and memes you read everyday, telling you to be mindful, and aware etc. etc. all that buzzword bullshit. It has merit to a degree, but the medium in which it’s delivered is washed down by a backlit screen with some randomly picked googled image with some serenity script font feeding you supposed words of wisdom passed down from a quote of a philosopher, extracted and out of context of some dead white guy’s life. Some dead person you heard of and were taught that they were notably and historically smart and have added to our human history in some kind of way.

Then that meme gets washed over by someone’s status, a humble-brag of their day and how awesome it was, you click “like” and move on. A post of an article on the benefits of some vitamin and how you should be getting more sleep as you read it passively staying up late on your laptop in bed, chewing on the inside of your mouth.

You are sucking on lifeless posts, you catch a glimmer of some knowledge and know and pass on the meme and pass on the information, but you move by it so fast, how much time did you actually let yourself digest this information before moving onto the next? And did this source actually give you some nourishment?

The bat carries itself around easily in the dark, navigating with echo-location. You need to get out and flutter about, use your voice and hear it echo, hear what vibrations come back to you, feel where the sound is, feel and hear where your night nutrition lies. You need to be the voice of your own stirrings for a while. The bat suggests you go schmooze, come out of your cave and try going to some kind of show enriched with the culture of your interests, or try something new. Meet-ups, classes, trying something new so your old doesn’t crust up in a batty cave.

To help combat the overstimulated battiness, have a listen:

If you chose 3. Winged Panther….
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Prrrraow! The cat with wings with a sizzling purr, and a gargling growl. A surface animal with flight tendencies, as when things get tough on the ground, it’s made easy to fly away and go to higher surfaces. You may be on the defence lately. Defending your stance, licking your wounded ego. You’re embarrassed you don’t always land gracefully. But tell me, how many other flying cats are around like you?

Slinking from a certain kind of confrontation, being coy, expressing an old pattern. Teasing the silky strands from that ball of silky yarn, toying with it, seeing what will happen if you pummel it and then shooting off when it becomes a bit of a mess.

Everybody has a certain genetic disposition. If you spit in a cup and send it off you can get alls sorts of graphs and percentages telling you what you are likely to be prone to or what type of disease you could be vulnerable to. These statistical facts don’t mean you have the disease, just that you could be vulnerable to it. Once you express an aspect of yourself, you can tease that part of your genes out and activate it. Say, you have a genetic disposition to alcoholism, yet you never touch alcohol. Does that mean you’re an alcoholic? Say you have the genes that say you are most likely to be a smoker, but you never touched a cigarette, does that mean you’re a smoker?

What genes are you aware of in your family that have been teased out because of environment? How did a cat like you sprout wings in the first place? and is it really that hard to land after you’ve taken flight from the ground? You may have wings, you may be stumbling around, but know that even if it’s not graceful, you can still land and have your feet back on the ground. What you express and tease out can be seen, and you have the power to tidy it, you are not a victim to your disposition. With the power of your thoughts, you can land gracefully, take a moment to relish it and curl up in a cozy ball on the hilltops.

Hey hey hey, who am I to pass judgement that way:

And with that, my flighty creatures, I hope you land well wherever you are in your life. Whenever you need, the Doc is here for you.

Love and Guts,
Doc Goreblot

Goreblot Fortune Friday

Happy Friday everyone! Here is the latest instalment of Goreblot’s Fortune Friday. Think of an issue that you would like to address or need guidance in and then choose one (or more) of the roman numerals I-III, or an object that appeals to you under them (as pictured) and scroll down to find your corresponding fortune!

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A little note on guidance fortunes: These are by no means THE answer to all your problems. The messages are offerings of a form of inspiration to help you realize yourself what changes you need to focus on. If something keeps popping up for you, perhaps it’s time to really zero in on that and work on it. If you’d like to get more personal guidance, I offer personal readings as well in my Etsy store.

On to the fortunes 😀

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If you chose I:
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I. Desire for acceptance. Need for affirmation. Longing for attention, or longing to find your tribe. Listen to the issues and struggles you keep banging your head against. Be aware of growth in stillness. Ground your feet into the earth. How can you deal with the issues that keep coming up? The answers are always there, its just a matter of sitting still for long enough and listening to them. ~An excellent phrase I got from one of my Yogi Tea bags (yes, silly tea bags have messages too), “Share your strengths, not your weaknesses.” ~
What’s your story that you keep telling people? Or what’s the story you keep telling yourself? How can you spin it to make it feel good for you? Embellish it, make it into a grand mythos. Branch out of your organ meat. Tell a tall tale authentic to you and/or of authentic you. You can only get authentic for yourself. To start, look at the beginning, maybe find a catch phrase, create an intro, paint a beautiful picture of the scenes that are glued together with you gliding along in them. Represent yourself strongly and you will come off as strong and most importantly, you will feel strong. Puff up your chest proudly to the sky. Now’s not the time to be apologetic of what you have to offer. And don’t be apologetic of who you are and what you do. Offer a ridiculous smile that will infect anyone who dare make eye contact with you.

*Make sure to warm up before practicing any kind of stretching and practice with care to your body if you are new to yoga* suggested Yoga pose medicine: Mountain Pose

If you chose II:
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II. The skinny vs. fat episode. How one projects their own set of problems on another. Jealousy of what someone assumably is endowed with. What cultural tags go on certain body types. It’s quite the obsession. That feeling that the other person has it easy or somehow is priveleged. A skinny body means fuck all, just as a fat body means fuck all – it’s culturally wrapped in stigma, and distaste, but ultimately it’s up to you to decide how much you want to internalize it’s functions (the labels). Being one or the other should not reflect you as a person. If you are focusing on and negating a body type because you feel you’ll never be like that, you are amplifying and reinforcing these culturally input stigmas and stereotypes, you are feeding into that system and you are reinforcing it into yourself so that it becomes this block. Projections will bounce off each other, you project your assumption onto others openly, the energy of that gets passed around in one big fucking circle jerk. The point is, everybody has their own set of issues of what brought them to where they are. A body shape is only one aspect to a person’s life, it’s not an entire translation, unless that is the person’s entire focus for the rest of their life. Assumptions about appearance will always be there. I encourage you to try to get past the stickiness of it. There’s more to a person than just their appearance. A whole history, a set of situations and a slew of characteristics streaming in their bloodline which got them to where they are, which got them here to where they are today. If you could look at someone’s entire journey, you’ll see it took them a set of their own unique challenges and set of circumstances to get where they are and to realize it. Don’t fall into the trap of comparison. Importance in these issues is coming forward in sharing, being open and honest with yourself and others and your own abilities and if you’re unhappy, look at what adjustments would help you on your journey. Instead of focusing on what makes you unhappy, focus on your own unique challenges and be humble about them. Your challenges are yours and no one can recognize them but you. You have something really cool and awesome to weave in your web of discoveries about your self. See that and own it.

*Make sure to warm up before practicing any kind of stretching and practice with care to your body if you are new to yoga* suggested Yoga pose medicine: Half Lord of the Fishes pose

If you chose III:
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III. Passion lost. Directionless, no affirmations or inspiration of where to go. Little to no give. Apathetic. What do? It’s a continuous battle to strive or even want to strive for something when there’s no play, no site goal, no encouragement or anything to pump forward. In these times, it’s pertinent to find something that will stick you to progression. It’s easy to forget drive when there’s no vehicle around to steer. So, let me inspire you to find that vehicle. Try getting out and dancing, singing, draw or paint, focus on finding somewhere to play. You haven’t just let yourself play in a while have you? When was the last time you just let loose? And I’m talking about just letting yourself go, allowing yourself some silliness without the fuss of have to’s and perfection. Balance is key to remembering passion or finding passion. Look at the pyramid of Mind, Body, Spirit – all three need to be present in order to navigate life harmoniously. If you’re lacking in one aspect, for instance, you’re body is strong but your mind is weak, find a way to give your mind a workout. Train yourself up. Often times when you start throwing yourself into an aspect that is out of balance, the other aspects can also strengthen with it. Your spirit is low? maybe working on something physical will bring you back to some awareness, bring you back into your mind. It’s no lie when people say they need to go for a run to clear their heads, there really is something to it. Find something to plunge yourself into, even if the other aspects are kicking and screaming, everything will eventually teeter to a balancing point. And if you stumble, that’s alright, because that is part of the process. So allow yourself play, allow yourself to orient yourself to building new skill sets too. Play brings discovery, find out what you can discover simply by giving it a go 😉

*Make sure to warm up before practicing any kind of stretching and practice with care to your body if you are new to yoga* suggested Yoga pose medicine: Tree Pose

Try taking your medicine this week daily and see what things open up for you. Even if you do your pose once or twice, it’s better than none at all. And let me know how you feel!

Love and guts,
Doc G.

Goreblot Fortune Friday Featuring The Gloomth and the Cult of Melancholy!

For this coming fortunes I asked my friend Taeden from Gloomth to provide the words. Last week I was on a bit of a hiatus, honestly needing a sorting out of myself as I constantly do, and concocting what to do next with Goreblots. I’m taking on more dance classes and I’m on the road to enrolling in yet another certification for fitness, so this is occupying some time and brain power.

Here are the choice words chimed in by Taeden!
1. Thaumaturgic 2. Eidolon 3. Aberrant. Choose your word(s) and tomorrow, your guidance fortune will be revealed!

Happy almost Friday and for some of you, long weekend! I haven't been as active on this account because I have been busy being active – dancing, studying, all that jazz. So! Here is this week's fortune Friday featuring @thegloomth ! I asked Taeden, the head honcho, to pick 3 words for this week's fortune forecast. Pick a word or two or three, and tomorrow your fortune will be revealed to you in Paintomancy Goreblot fashion. In the meantime, check out Gloomth's amazing fashion on the Insta and web! Brand spanking new collection! As pictured here in the photo I butcher collaged 😆 model @tifferknee Have a wonderful day! #gloomthandthecultofmelancholy #gloomth #goreblot #goreblots #paintomancy #divination #foretune #psychic #tarot #oracle #psychicreading #freepsychicreading #chooseyourownadventure #existentialism

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There’s some exciting stuff happening with Gloomth as of late and I feel lucky to be close friends with such a strong creative gal as I get to have a little inside scoop before things are released. So in case you aren’t familiar with Gloomth, they are an alternative lolita brand of clothing. I say alternative because it doesn’t necessarily have to be ‘goth’ or full on lolita. What’s great about Gloomth clothing is you can integrate your own style with the pieces and make your own unique personal brand that expresses you or perhaps one of your alter egos or characters.

It’s a challenge to be different, especially when it comes to sticking out fashion wise. And what I constantly learn and get reminded of from Gloomth and the other weirdos I know, is to be comfortable doing you whatever that entails. For me, it’s an interesting mixture of trying out different outfits that don’t necessarily blend in with the norm, to sometimes wanting to be invisible depending on the day. When I actually do get into outfit making mindfully, I feel my day or evening has more of a sense of purpose and intention to it. Choosing clothing really is like choosing your own uniform, especially if you have the luxury of wearing whatever you want to your job. Even within the guidelines, there’s always a way to slip in your uniqueness. When you wear something that feels right to you, it’s fun, and it feels awesome and overall, don’t you just feel like you are in your own more? Powerful even?

Yea. You’ve got the power, so don’t forget to embrace that.

Now, if your fancy is tickled, I encourage you to check out Gloomth’s *Brand New* collection called Ghost Story. Some luvely pieces in there that may whisper a ghostly song to your vampire soul 😉
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Lastly, but not leastly, if you are local to the Toronto area, I also encourage you to check out Gloomth’s event the Haunted Tea Party! This is an excellent chance to bust out your very bests, it does so happen it lands on a Sunday, and be elegantly social, or a spooky wallflower, whatever floats your boat and meet the Gloomth team and other interesting, wonderful oddballs. It’s not to be missed! Tickets are limited, so I suggest you grab yours while you can. AND it’s being hosted at a very gorgeous, ghostly Victorian museum home.
Details here: http://www.gloomth.com/teaparty.html

Stay tuned for Fortune Fridays tomorrow!

Love and Guts,
Doc G.

A Garbageface Goreblot Fortune Friday!

Happy Full Moon in Scorpio folks! Also, Happy Earth Day! and of course happy happy Friday! This week, I asked the Garbageface to contribute 3 words for me to divine in Goreblot paintomancy fashion.

Here is the Garbage fortunes for this week, featuring GARBAGEFACE!

The choices art: 1. Scarab 2. Candle 3. Yarn
Choose what your guts are telling you, and read further to see what your fortune has to say.

1. Scarab

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Skipping pages in a book is like skipping over tiny moments of experience. You may glaze over the important nuances. You’re trying to push and plan for perfection, make something full proof with no mistakes. Avoidant of circumstances which might have you unexpectedly on your toes. All this preparation to save yourself from a feeling you might get, a judgment you think you might receive. But how much are you actually doing? How much time are you carving just frantically planning and thinking? We always tend to run away from feelings, even and especially the ones we imagine. It’s the uncertainty. We’re often the most agitated when we’re waiting forcing ourselves forward, we can’t sit still because of nervous anticipation. How hard it is to sit with that feeling, to find a way to ground ourselves when our minds can’t focus, when we’re racing and grappling for those few steps to make it less flighty and more real. The unknown, really. That’s what we flee from. We try to know it, we think we may know it having our abilities to project ourselves into the future and we project into our futures by reflecting on our pasts, our collected, nostalgic experiences educating us. Why is it so hard to experience the moment as we’re wont to tell ourselves to do these days? this very moment? because it takes a lot of concentration? no. It’s the antithesis of holding onto every thought. It’s recognizing what is in front of you right now. It’s knowing that those unknowns you are waiting for can actually wait for you and you can let them go until you see them and then before you know it, they’re no longer unknown.

Song prescription~ LIKE A BOTTOMLESS PIT (OF COFFEE)(SO PITTED) by GARBAGEFACE

2. Candle.

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Prescribe a passion to your life and don’t be afraid to love it hard. With this passion, you will have fights, you will cuddle, you will break-up and then get back together. Passion doesn’t necessarily go away, it just steers in so many courses. Of course you can have many multiple passions and they may have varying intensities and involvements with you. Passion has such a strong presence in life, a fruit was even named after it. Passion, can it be lost? Sure. There are moments of it fizzling out. Burn out happens often, expect that, know that. And those times of wondering what’s next or what’s the point, those are the times of self reflection. When the flame fizzles out and darkness envelopes you, notice the quiet, re-establish your surroundings, your body and your tendencies. There is nothing wrong with contemplation in a quiet dark place. Reconnect with your body particles, your flesh. Passion can take a break. It can be quiet or not there, it can change. it can morph and it will light up differently every time you return to it with a new face, a changed face. When you relax the skin of your face in some corpse pose, looking at the back of your eyelids, what do you see? poke the middle of your forehead, what do you feel? No one can take passion away from you. We often confuse passion with competitiveness. We want to compete our passion to someone else’s. Know that your passion is yours. No one else’s. It’ll strive differently, have a different cadence, it’ll be a different colour or shape. Know that to preserve your passion, you must tend to the flame and if it’s to be blown out take care to mind the wick, preserve it in wax, commit to this and it will last longer. Commitment is what sees your passion through, in darker passionless times, tend to what feeds it, what nourishes it even when it’s hard to lift a finger. A book you read, an art exhibit you attended, a concert you went to. Go to something, look, consume, ignite again when you’re ready.

Song perscription: STEP ONE (BARRAGE OF CERTAINTY) by GARBAGEFACE

3. Yarn

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Play entanglement. Personal weave. Intimate gesture. Intricate design. You can sit all night working on your project, your craft, spinning those fibres, creating tangles on purpose to make yourself a puzzle to bury yourself into. Like the Rubix cube, your squares have to be a bit mismatched until you get it all lined up. It’s that reaching for fabrication, building those connections, looking for that sweet spot to produce the myelin, a network of brain tubes wrapping and growing to create something learned. That sweet spot to take your craft further. At first the feeling is resistance, procrastination to focus. Please push the anxieties that cling to sir procrastination aside, they’re dead weight. There’s something quite beautiful about fibrous threads, they can knit together in so many ways – weaving, felting, crocheting, sewing stitches all different patterns but similar structures in that they crossover. The threads hold each other together, bound by knots, laying over each other, tightening in a ball, tightening. Your creative endeavours are calling for cross reference, for a different approach. It’s calling for a bit of a mess to happen so a new entanglement can be found, a new network of knots and stitches, knitted fibres becoming one mass of something shapely, if anything. And then things will line up like the matched up sides of that tricky algorithm of the Rubix cube. Simply put, things will need to look fucked up, be fucked up, and this will happen right before things start to lace together. The more fuckery, the more fiddling, the more attention to finding the right place. Allow yourself to submerge in this beautiful process of struggle. Struggle really is your friend.

Song perscription: REAL LIFE IN SUBMERSION by GARBAGEFACE

Have a good one! Make sure to get some moonshine while you can, it probably has some source of vitamin in it. And until next time….

Love and guts,
Doc G.