When And Where There’s A Will Goreblot Fortune

Will you be?

“We may think will-power is involved, but more likely…change is due to want power.  Wanting the new addiction more than the old one.  Wanting the new me in preference to the person I am now.” ~George A. Sheehan, physician and senior athlete.

We all know the old idiom “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”.  In the 1600’s it was slightly different, To him that will, ways are not wanting.  We want will! But sometimes our ways get the better of us and then we have to find where that will went to.

It’s divvying up our stores of will and pushing to find answers because we want something badly enough.  Willpower is a muscle we have to flex and strengthen in order to make things work in our favour.  And depending how you’ve accumulated certain habits that get in the way, your will powers might have weakened.  But if we believe in something wholeheartedly enough, if we allow ourselves some faith, it can be enough to drive us to our goals.  It’s that word ‘enough’, that tips or overflows the needing of something to happen, that it’s just enough to push us.

Change is going to happen whether we like it or not.  There is always a force unseen tinkering with our daily lives and expectations.  How we deal with these forces and potentially make some our own, is completely up to our will.

If you find you are struggling to find a way, know that the struggle is a good sign, it’s a sign that you want to make actionable change, you have the will! It is in you, and even though it may take time to find the way, and find the force within you, it will come out and it will be glorious!

To help with finding ways, I managed to think of looking up an app for focus as I have terrible struggles with my own focus, personally.  Keeping on task is something I truly have a hard time with and so my will is there to change this and transform this.  You poke at something long enough with a stick, eventually it’s going to budge, even if you just poked it with the stick a bit harder.

So here’s the app I was talking about.  I’m using it now as I type and rattle on.  I’ve tried an egg timer but I keep forgetting to think about using it.  And since these are times of digital habits, it makes sense to just go with the tools that we easily reach for anyways.  Why make the fight harder, when you can be slightly sneaky about it?


I’m still fresh to it, but the chunking of time is real clever and makes things manageable.  The ticking sounds help put a cadence to my focus as well.

And one more I discovered to try using is a brain training app.


This one seems to be good to train those uncomfortable places, slowly reach new goals each day, only takes a moment of your time and could be used when you are in transit or waiting in line or something.

The goal is always to find ways to improve ourselves.  Finding ways to poke around and explore and discover.  If you’re finding you’re stuck, instead of focusing on all the things that make you stuck, try a different approach, a sneaky approach, a teeny tiny thing you can implement each day.  And if you’d like some guidance, try a Goreblot down below and see where it takes you!

On to the Goreblot fortunes!

A while back I posted….

xray of vertebrae bones

Think of an issue you would like to address, listen to your gut, then pick a number and scroll down.  Your corresponding Goreblot fortune awaits you!

If you chose #1….

orange watercolour

Body Slam.  What’s your jam?  How do you move day to day? Do you slouche?  Do you hunch? Are you sitting mostly? Standing? Do you find certain body parts protrude more than you’d like?

Posture is something everyone battles with.  How you are holding yourself is a symptom to how you train your body the entire day.  If you train your body to sit mostly, maybe with a wallet in your back pocket, you are training your hips to be imbalanced, having one higher than the other.  This eventually leads to other problems down the road that will involve your back, your spine.

With these odd trainings, your body will compensate the imbalances in weird ways.  Indeed, it takes work to train the body opposite to what you’ve been unknowingly training it to do.  But even 5 minutes per day of an exercise to counter the imbalance can do wonders.

Every movement you make is a type of practice for your body.  A physical training.  That is, if you are sitting most of your days, you are training your body to be sedentary.  Low activity.

Your physical training directly corresponds to your mental health.  That is, your body will translate what’s going on through your brain, through your body in various symptoms.  Stress is a big one and your body will let you know pretty easily when you are stressed.  But it can also be sneaky because we often don’t think we are stressed.

Not getting enough sleep? Watching Netflix too late in the evening? Checking your email before or even in bed? Watch out for these habits, as artificial lighting will translate and accumulate into your body’s responses to other things you throw at it.

If you want to read a little more on the effects of light on the body subject: http://www.lightingservices.com/lighting-human-biological-behaviour

Here’s a song to get you tumbling and tinkering around in your body:

If you chose #2…
green and red watercolour

Thick and syrupy.  Mind sluggish and scattered.  Combating the drain, fighting for energy levels, will-power, and your attention.  Your need to focus.  Everything is an interruption.  Hunger, boredom, children, pets and phone calls.  If you’re on the computer or your phone, your attention and time seems doomed.  Your will-power has finite ability and you only have so much supply of it in one day.

Then, habits kick in, you go on automatic pilot, and you find yourself plugged in.  Remember the 1999 science fiction movie, The Matrix? Where everybody’s perceived reality is actually a simulated world that they are plugged into called, the matrix.  Human beings subdued by robots that use their internal energy sources for electrical power.  Not too far off from where we are today. (social media is like simulated worlds, our energy goes into them, and data gets collected for companies and ads- robots collecting energy!).

You are still opting to be in that simulated world.  That’s ok, but you have a feeling and you know there’s more out there.  If you could just break free.

I encourage you to pull the plug.  Turn off the switch.  Go for a walk with just you and nature.  Sit in the dark with just yourself and meditate.  You will probably start to experience an itchy, creeping feeling when you first attempt to practice this.  It is only anxiousness, fear, something you learned, and it’s bubbling up because you are attempting to break it’s cycle.

That moment when you get washed over with these feelings, thoughts flood in, future and past lists of things well up in your brain, all syrupy and drowning your sense of peace.  Drowning your awareness of the unthreatening present.  All that energetic heat you are letting bundle in your nervous system and giving power to, you are giving power to the matrix.  We all do it, every once and a while, we let our energy go in places that are simulated.  Simulated by our own brains, simulated by technology.  Navigating through screens, and unseen depths, and fears.

Just know, you have the power to unplug.  You can take that red pill and awaken.  Release those simulated worlds that have a hold on you, and find your powerful true nature.  In the present.

Here’s a little red pill song anthem to get you going:

If you chose #3…
gooey watercolour

Vague parasite.  Connecting with people.  Absent crush.  Writhing inside while around people who writhe on the outside.  When alone things about yourself emerge.

There will always be this little thing that eats at you.  Things you should have done, things you should have said.  The little ‘what if’ parasite.  It takes you from yourself.  Takes you from totally being free and being yourself around others.

The freeze, the filter, the holding your truth back.  The worry that something about you may trigger another person’s sensitivities.

Truth is, everyone has their own little parasites.  And they all have different combinations of them, picking them up along the way from different environments, different sandboxes of experiences. How much are those little worms holding you back? How much do you tip toe around other people to avoid confrontation and to avoid their parasites?

If you opened your mouth a little more, things will come out, they will disperse.  You cannot control something once it’s outside of you.  Once something has left your being, an action, a word, whatever, it is no longer just yours.  Other people will react, other people will act accordingly around your stuff.  That is not to say, don’t take responsibility for your actions.  It is to say, that you cannot control what other people are going to do about it.  Only you can continually work on you.

Try practicing less filtering. Remember those sandbox days when there were no worries, and there was only sand to play with.  Those castles you made and then tore down.  You may have torn someone else’s sand creation down, either on purpose or by accident.  But there was always sand, there were always hands to rebuild those castles.

Impermanence permeates life.  The struggles and suffering you create and cling to, is just that, a clinging.  But everything passes.  Sand gets washed away.

Parasites can get the better of us, so here’s a song to shake some of them out…

I hope these Goreblots meet you well! Contemplate and release this Libra Full Moon. And if you need, don’t be afraid to get in touch!

Love and Guts,
Doc G.

Distraction Action Goreblot Fortunes

“Maybe a spot of cocaine would help…”

Oh distractions. I cannot lie.  When it comes to to-do lists and checklists, I make them, but they’re never in an organized fashion.  I waste my time being distracted, so much so that I believe it is a disorder, it is chronic distraction, a real, very real problem.  I have all the good intent, but somewhere along the road when I have or am gaining momentum, I run amok and self-sabotage my efforts.  This happens through distractive impulses.  It’s like I can’t help it!

What happens is the priorities in my mind instantly get shuffled when a thought enters, a curiosity passes through nabbing my attention and without even thinking, I oblige it.  I satiate many of these thought impulses by following through, like looking up a question on Google, going to a store, leaving the room to look in another room.  It’s like the nagging is too much and since I know I can satisfy it if I act on it immediately, then I just do so.  Where’s the harm?

It’s an attention grabbing dance

A dance of distractions.  A dance of avoidance, because it seems so hard to just sit for a moment, unfurl and give in to one task.  All I need is enough focus for one task.  But it is such a struggle.  And the struggle is real my friends.

It’s incredible how much distractive habits can get the better of you.  Like pulling the lever over and over at the slot machine, waiting for the next combo of items to pop up and anticipating that satisfying winning feeling.  If the feeling doesn’t come right away, that’s ok, I’m on my ass anyways, might as well do another round, again, what’s the harm?

The chemicals are real and they want to steal my brain juice!

Amazing how much focus a distraction can steal.  Why is that? Why do all the click bait, Google searches, pacing around distractives get all the attention? Instant gratification.  The very fact that we get addicted to plugging into those sweet sweet dopamine centres (see what I did there? I inserted a link for you to go on a tangent and read more therefore encouraging this distractive habit).

We are forever chasing the next fix.  Or are we running from boredom and responsibility? Feeling itchy and unsettled with the quiet.  Feeling anxious to be with our own thoughts and unconnected to the world.  Anxious about missing out and getting that instant feedback.  Notifications are crack and for people like me that don’t get out much and connect with humans that often, it can be lethal.

There is definitely something to it all….

At least I can say I’m self aware.  I am very aware of this situation and I am trying to get myself out of the pickling that I throw myself into.

There are moments where I’ll get up and feel and see the environment around me and how big it is.  Like waking up and realizing there is still a world that’s real that surrounds my physical being.  It’s a breath of fresh air and sometimes literally when I’m able to drag myself outside.

goreblot fortunes time

Without further talk about distractions, to which I could run many tangents on and thoughts on – all the puns intended.  I bring you another episode of Goreblot fortunes. This time brought to you by the lovely stages of rosemary steeped in water.

rosemary in water

Thinking of a question or issue you’d like some guidance towards, pick a number and scroll down to find your corresponding Goreblot fortune. I paint and write each individual fortune through a reading style I call paintomancy. Please dive in and see what your guts have to say!

  1. Rosemary light

Disperse. Emergence.  Particle.  Immerse yourself into new depths.  You are discovering you have come to a point where you can really spread out and test your skills.  Question your limits and what limits you have set upon yourself.  Begin again with new defying wonder and curiosity of the simple ingredients that already exist in your cupboard.

Take your mind to new magics and new possibilities.  Awaken and explore.  You are as ready as a stream of cream becoming a huge cloud in it’s new coffee home.

At first, the simple space and freedom seems daunting, but you will find your edges. You will reach the perfect fit.  It just takes that first drip, that first drizzle or pour and then you open up the floodgates to a new world.

There’s the sense sometimes that unexplored territory is still somehow, somewhat familiar, yeah? Perhaps you explored it so much with your mind that physically going there was just making it more solid for you.

Perhaps this is why it took so long to initiate, you having visited this place so many times before with your mind.  You visited and explored all the angles so many times with your mind’s eye.

This is your time to initiate the real.  Begin and initiate beyond the spark of an idea.  Set into motion and explore and create.  Experiment and toy with the depths.  There is no losing in this action, only gaining such things as perspective, momentum and most certainly, insight.

So take a moment and rise above. Here’s your song to jam to for the coming weekend and week.


2. Rosemary medium
rosemary medium

We are such romantics sometimes when it comes to our expectations. We dream up situations and how its all going to go down. We anticipate the following steps to our one step. It’s exciting. Anticipation is the best feeling even before the final result as you get to imagine, excitedly, what is to come next.

Perhaps, not all situations are exciting. There’s the possibility that the delicate balance of excite can tip into anxiousness and nervousness. Notice at what point does it tip? Where does the excitement end and the anxiety begin? As if to say you can’t allow yourself the luxury of happy anticipation. It has to come crashing down with worry because the world has so many factors that could make it go wrong.

You find yourself suspended, blocked and paralyzed. You no longer want to anticipate happily, instead you default to crunching into a ball and biting your nails, drinking alcohol, or curling back into bed. All those succulent coping mechanisms come swirling in to soothe.

Why is anticipation so worrisome? At what point did you switch? The expectations then become external and you project them on what you think others expect from you. Soon your whole world becomes this one big demand on top of more demands but still nothing has budged.

So this is a call to reel (or real) yourself back in. Centre yourself and ground yourself with tangibles. Turn off your expectation projections and remind yourself of the joys of not knowing. Allow your future self to handle it however it is going to happen. And really see your present self in the process, getting lost in the steps and enjoying what is, no care of future expectations and bombardments because you know you have yourself covered. Right now.

Why put it off another day? Here’s your anthem for the weekend and coming week.

3. Rosemary dark
dark rosemary

Deep and glandular. The process has been seen through to this beautiful age. You can finish here whatever you have started. There is something really satisfying in following your process. Tracking each accomplished step, marking it and charting it.

Each step was satisfaction because you remained curious and open the entire time. There may have been some uncomfortable struggles, but you knew that was part of it, you’ve been there before. Uncomfortable struggles are what make us learn and grow. If we were comfortable all the time, we’d end up a potato, brain and organs, all potato.

Just remember this accomplishment, whether small or big. Take note, in fact, of all your triumphs. Spin a true tale of yourself when the going gets rough and do not let yourself slip into the trines of negative self-talk habits. You have the power to spin things around. You have worked hard and no one should have the power to take that away from you.

No one knows your history like you do.

Often times after seeing a project through to completion, there are stages of celebration and then stages of grievances. After the initial achievement, there is the inevitable come down from that high. It is imperative not to let the down define you or shake you out of your solid grounding and the foundation that you created for yourself. There is now more significant evidence and proof that you are capable and your endeavours are worthwhile.

Remember that. You are worthwhile and what you have done is something to celebrate and you have the power to continue on to the next adventure. Accept your brilliance, stand back and admire it from another angle. If you should ever forget or find the tug of negative habit, make a list of things that bring you up. Put up a visible reminder of things that you’ve accomplished and all your wonderful traits.

If you have photos, put those up. Anything to shine your capabilities to the stars and remind you of your power, your strength. It is in you and you have done it. Celebrate that, well done!

Get your game on and go play. Here’s your anthem for this weekend and the coming week.

Have a glorious weekend folks!

Love and Guts,
Doc Goreblot

Trust Future Forward Goreblot

Trust is such an interesting intangible thing in which we place it and how it’s placed, in what, as if it needs a pedestal or safe container or containment. Much like time is and it keeps on ticking, ticking, ticking, into the future.
Or slipping rather…

I try to keep up, I do.  My last post was a bearing of the soul, a little sharing of my internal struggles and path journeying.  This post brings us back to the good ol’ Goreblot fortunes routine!  I’m in high spirits that I will maintain a regular thing.  I just have to snuggle into a spot.  What say you? Did Fortune Fridays work for you? We’ll figure it out 😉 Let’s get on with it shall we?!

It’s been too long, and now as I write, I feel most alive today where I felt the first kiss of spring on my skin, and a rejuvenation to my soul.  When the air feels clean like this, and everything thawed, there’s no holding back from feeling inspired and motivated.

There’s just a whole bunch more bounce in the step. No resistance, but an excited ease into everything.  Sure, it may be unnatural to have such a climate in February, where the ground was frozen solid but last week.  I found myself walking over an ice-laden beach for a morning stroll. Treacherous. And not much before that I was walking through a snow blizzard along the shores, though still I witnessed some brave souls out there in the waters paddle boarding in the winter surf.

Now, people are out enjoying the rays in mild weather and our calendared seasons are starting to write themselves.

Our environment is changing and our climate, there is no denying the evidence as it stares directly at us. I try to make sure I get outside as much as possible to commune with nature and drink in what I can. Observing the changing hues of the sky, the blustery winds, the animals and bugs scurrying about. There’s so much to learn. I finally (I say finally because I have been wanting to for quite some time) took up studying moths last year. An opportunity unravelled for me where I was lucky to study with other amateurs as well as the pros outside and under the stars. We looked at white sheets for hours, this is how mothing is done. Looking, pointing, taking pictures, writing down the names, awkwardly leafing through the pages of the moth guide. It’s an entire world worth exploring, and that’s just one fraction.

moth on a sheet
Painted Lichen Moth

Eventually, it will be birding, bugging, gardening…

We are so caught up in this world of attainment, consumerism, status, life marking milestones, as well as fighting for ‘rest’ in front of screens, the ubiquitous term of ‘adulting’ slithers in, then we start to lose touch of what’s right under our noses. Other than our smart phones or touchy screen pad things. We want to feel accomplishment, but sometimes it’s hard to decipher just what that is and what that means.

Goreblot Time

With that being said, let’s look into your fortunes and see what kind of guidance a Goreblot can offer. Think of an issue or question you may have and then listen to your first gut impression by picking one of these words: 1. Bile 2. Beget 3. Blasphemy. Then scroll down to find your corresponding Goreblot paintomancy fortune.

Bile, Beget, Blasphemy in text

If you chose 1. Bile
Bile painting
Bile. Delicious digestive fluids. Breakdown and purify those little nuggets that enter in. There’s too much of something that’s wreaking havoc on your system. You need to take stock and figure out what’s going on with you. Or within you.

Your body has layers of accumulated toxins that dance in your fluid streams, vessel streams. Weaving and bobbing, circulating. These toxins catch, pile up, becoming a thick, tar-like mass.

These fluids dance and flit around, dispersing into finer bubbles, gradually becoming more emulsified into one contained, mayonnaise-like fluid. Thick, and spreadable.

Retracing the ingredients and the steps before they all were blended up is what is needed. It’ll be a bit like remembering every step you made in an improv. You acted without thinking, but your body knows and takes stock, it takes all the field notes and then starts reading them back to you. The notes might not make entire sense, translation running through a sort of thick, coagulated, line of gobbledygook.

So it’s up to you to take a step back and simplify. Subtract some ingredients for a while and give your system a break. Perhaps, use one choice ingredient to help unclog and drain your overtaxed pipes. It’s only a matter of time before you start oozing, leaking and/or shutting down as your body is want to do.

When it’s had enough.

Take care! and find a cleansing tonic to expel the buildup, take it consistently until you start seeing improvements. Just stop, rewind, be kind and minimize and simplify. Subtract more, rather than adding more. A simple equation to balance yourself out again.

Find out what seeds you’re eating as a past time activity and you’ll find out what you’re growing…

If you chose 2. Beget
red and green swirly painting
Beget. Beholden. Betrothed. Be. The social pressures of yesteryear are gone. Who are you tricking but yourself? To anticipate what others are going to do and how they are going to react, does not leave space for unpredictable variables.

You hold yourself down anticipating, calculating and trying to predict, making your moves according to how other people may or may not act. Dancing, you are dancing around seemingly strategically. However, you are so not in control. You cannot predict the outcome or the reaction of another as far as you think you can, and in fact, not only are you holding yourself back and giving yourself a disservice, you are not giving any chance on that other person or people. It’s a disrespect. A failure of trust.

Forget thinking you are doing any good trying to make the best step because at this point, you haven’t made any steps. There’s no rush, but just know you won’t get anywhere if you stand still or backtrack and calculate repeatedly. Backtracking will just make you step backwards even further.

Michael Jackson’s moonwalk may appear backwards (or forwards), but pay attention to the physical direction he’s taking. It’s only backwards because he’s not facing the direction he’s going in (or is he going in a direction? or standing still?). Overall, the moonwalk is creating an illusion, of sliding backwards while pushing forward. The illusionist, however, is still going in the direction he’s intended. Tricking you. Smoothing over things. You may put forth all these steps, but ultimately you are still choosing the direction you are going in. So perhaps take the moonwalk as a cue in how you approach your issue – take the steps and look at it from an entirely different direction. You may have to reverse or invert. Where you may be looking out and back, you may need to look forward and in instead. And perhaps, stop tricking yourself. You may be creating all this illusion, but still not moving anywhere and that’s what you’ve decided unbeknownst to yourself.

Most importantly, follow the direction that suits you and please don’t worry about stepping on any toes. Other people have just as much will and an agenda of their own to move and get out of the way or go somewhere else entirely. Or perhaps dance with you. Whatever the case may be. I know it’s not easy, but, trust.

Go forward, be smooth, are you ok? are you ok? I’d say you’re ok…

If you chose 3. Blasphemy
spiral painting with and x
Blasphemy. Against a grain. Spitting on belief. Core centre. Spiral. Have you ever walked a straight line?

No two paths are the same and you are not a bad person to follow what is true to you. But know your impulses, know your tendencies and most importantly, be aware of something that’s much bigger than you. Whatever that looks like to you. Whether it’s a galaxy universe, a deity or god, mother nature, there’s a whole sphere or atmosphere that is beyond your centre. Stroking the inside so much can create these habit loops, these spirals of repetition that find you following your impulses without a conscious mind.

If you want to make your way out, break the chain. You need some support and you need some belief. With support and belief comes trust. It’s so hard, it seems, to trust these days isn’t it? As it’s a way of leaving ourselves vulnerable to unknowns and intangibles. But if you can decide to believe and trust, there can be a sense of relief that you fall into, as it alleviates stressful questions.

Have you ever walked a straight line? Try it. Try a walking meditation where you aim to walk straight, focusing on the line that draws from your feet, your body and how it progresses forward. If you’re on a sidewalk and there’s people you may need to be slow and steady, be aware of your surroundings but still manage your ease and focus. Notice other people move around you, notice the energy they carry and pass it by mindfully aware. Keep to your straight line as much as possible, breathing deep and relaxed. Gaze softened, but still managing to look further ahead to a vanishing point. Observe and feel what is happening in your peripheries.

Remember to notice your breath. Notice when your breath starts to hold or notice where it stops. Notice what thoughts are happening, or what exterior factor is influencing your breath. Finally, trust in your direction, the line and moving forward. Observe the things and people passing through your sphere and remember the sphere that you are on, the Earth. We are all passing through. Your support is your belief and your unabashed trust.

You are…

I hope these Goreblots see you well into the weekend. If you have any questions you can find me here Have a good one!

Love and Guts,

Goreblot Ghost

doc goreblot looking at the comfort maple
Comfort Maple
“True love is like ghosts, which everyone talks about but few have seen.” ~Francois de La Rochefoulcauld

In these winter days, time slips through my papery fingers like slippery sand granules.

When there are not many markers like a routine job to go to, any people I regularly see, or life milestones, I get lost adrift in my own world like an apparition. I become a ghost.

When I was living with my parents, my dad called me a ghost. He exclaimed, “I hardly ever see you, you always go up to your room.  You’re like a ghost in this house.”
My dad is now passed, so ironically he is now the ghost of the house. But, I can’t help but hear his words echo inside my ear these days.

Yes, I’ve been a ghost to this website. I’ve been a ghost to friends and social media. I’ve been but an apparition nervously flitting around trying to find the light.  Trying to find my way. Part of this ghosting is in my history and in my nature. Perhaps, some is due to my being adopted and having awkward attachment issues.

Soul searching can go on for a really, really long time. I think it’s a continuous process anyways. I’ve experimented with different dieting and exercise regime to shake me up and start seizing the day. I made lots of attempts that resulted in lots of failures. I’d make commitments to classes in hopes that somewhere attending those classes, I’d find myself.  Or gain some confidence.

I have been reading lots of self-help and philosophy books which I find do help (I’ll make a list below), but take up a good amount of time to read (because screen distraction in these times break up my attention span even more).  And reading doesn’t always offer immediate insight. But hold on, is there a rush? Insight seems to come at it’s own pace, I’ve found, and through experience.  I simply cannot rush insight, no matter how much I stare and squint at that pot waiting for it to boil. It’s one thing to read and philosophize about a concept and then preach about it, and it’s another thing to actually practice it. One needs to experiment and try things out and eventually something will happen where you will experience something and that’s where the knowledge of insight embeds itself unto/into you.  Take that self!

In these ghost days, I haven’t been completely still.  I have been getting a variety of readings like Tarot, practicing reading my own cards and doing some journalling. I’ve even tried out Past Life Regression, an unexpectedly vivid and intense experience where I gathered some interesting information.  With all these experiences, insights, my darlings, were weeping out of my pores.  But it still seemed like I was dancing around something.

“Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.” ~ Leonardo da Vinci

All of these fantastic attempts at finding some grounding, finding some purpose. But the key I found was finding simplicity and that there is no one key.  As things were expanding, there was some natural contracting to the heat of each moment. But keeping things simple and organized and clear, feels like a definite key to finding myself some grounding and stabilization.

I have anxiety issues that can tumble into depression. Or vice versa. I’ve been able to find the triggers, mostly, and surprise, those are in diet and physical stresses.  It can be so obvious, these straight forward cues, but somehow we can get so embedded in our habits, it’s tricky to remove yourself and look in.  It takes acceptance, and objective observance to really stab at what’s going on underneath the surface.

So back to simplicity- now, I am a person who never got structure drilled in at a young age. I was never told to do chores or make my bed. I didn’t have a particular time where I studied or did my homework, it was always last minute. So I have an extra hard time of creating my own structure.

looking out to the waters
Looking Out- Photo by Harley Pageot

I could sit and hideaway forever like a ghost and not have to deal with people and stressors, but I know as much as anyone I have an itch to scratch and part of that is to come out and seize a purpose that shapes my life. There is too much passion in me to be a ghost and flit about for too long.  There is only so much hiding and feeling sad about hiding that can be done.

I’ve returned to repeated points where I would get tired of myself, the same thoughts and patterns happening over and over. Tired of not putting a foot out there, tired of not trying hard enough.  My history speaks of attempts, but also I must not overlook the successes as they are proof that I can be more and do more.

Simplicity comes to me in form of not trying to tackle all the things, but methodically replacing the bad habits or inserting particular structures.  I also need a slight amount of effort to quiet that convincing drill sergeant in my head.  I’m sure you have one too, screaming in your ear, shouting demands and surely some painful insults to go with them.

To help quiet that sergeant just a little more, I need to remember, and have reminders that, I am enough.  I am worthwhile.

I always knew mornings had something to them every time I’ve attempted to integrate them into my life. Mornings are where things happen. And this is across the board in some research that I have read.  It really is as simple as aligning with nature, where quiet starts and awareness starts taking place.

I discovered making my bed every morning has snowballed into other structure making habits. This stuff is CBT, is yoga practice, is mindfulness, is Ayurveda – it all connects to this idea of simple awareness.  This return to mindful practice.

I can’t stress enough that it isn’t the easiest thing in the world. Especially, where we’re in a world now where our default is to claw around and wrestle with ‘busyness’, stress about future things, agonize about past things and fight for our time.  Time that seems steadily slipping through our key tapping fingers, our gaze, miles away from our bodies.

This is a time now to know that every moment is an opportunity.  An opportunity to live and feel how I want to feel.  Everything else, future worries, past regrets, are just phantoms.  I relinquish my self imposed ghost status as it no longer serves me.

I hope you do the same and become solid with me.

You can find me here, and also here, come say hi!

Love and Guts,

Doc Goreblot

**Here are some helpful books that I have found very useful.

-The Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine N. Aron Ph. D.


Virgo-ian Times

Perfection lays out the land of Virgo season. But it doesn’t have to be nit-picky, just well groomed and well looked after. I definitely feel the fall season hit as the nights are getting cooler and plans for more harvests are in the making. I love apple picking season, and even though the picking itself is short, there’s still something about it that stays with me, perhaps the pile of apples I then have to figure out what to do with afterwards. My favourite are Cortlands.

September is a great time for buckling down and working on your stuff, whatever it may be. And if you get flighty headed like me, with excitement for fall and all the air-like energy floating about, especially once we hit Libra season later this month (my sun sign is Libra in case you’re wondering), there are some methods to ground yourself. Try cooking a meal, especially for loved ones, there’s nothing more satisfying than seeing the progress of a project from start to finish and the finishing part being you get to eat it! well, dishes and clean up, but that is satisfying too when you do some team work with your mealtime partners. I cooked a meal for my mom and I the other night and got reminded how luvely it is to share mealtime together, so I am taking note to do more of this. Other grounding methods; reading, writing in a journal, physically touching the ground, dancing, and touching animals or other humans (upon permission of course! hugs are super lovely).

Anyhoo, onto the Goreblots!

Your choices come in the form of oddities; 1. a mummified mouse 2. ye old gin pills 3. cannon

Thinking of your question or issue that you wish to address, choose your pick and scroll down for your corresponding message.

If you chose 1. mummefied mouse…

Curled up and forgotten in some leather bag. You held on for a long time. Someone changed, you changed, a friend changed. Even if you stay in one position for so long, change happens inevitably, the decay takes over, dust settles into the crevices.

Your expectations became a habit, became the better of you. Feeling like you knew what to expect and continue to expect, until that change happened and your expectations started to crumble to the floor. It’s a little bit jarring. A role you once knew got taken away or denied and now it’s like you have to rehearse for a new part or continue to try and play the same old part. Try not to get yourself typecast though, I’m sure you are a bit tired of it yourself. For the sake of yourself and others, try to move on and move past what you expect of others in their roles. We get ourselves so restricted when we have to set ourselves around other people and our idea of what they need and what they are sensitive to.

A loop of tip toeing around sensitivities, yes it is nice to be considerate of others for sure, but you’re not being ultra altruistic by avoiding things you need to say or do in order to make someone else feel comfortable. And then it’s shocking to you when their mindset and actions change and you realize all along you really didn’t need to be doing any tip toeing, or being a certain way around them. Life is too short, let your guard down that you have up for others, they don’t need it and it certainly isn’t doing anyone any favours.

A song for you:

If you chose 2. the Gin Pills…

What do you do under influence? What takes your wind and sets your sails and pulls or pushes you in a direction, so fast and furious? All thanks to caffeine high, sugar high, alcohol buzz etc. What choices do you make that you might not otherwise if you were less or not at all influenced by substance?

Your impulsivity gives you a high that you can ride for a time, but then you’ll find it comes landing or crashing, depending, at a certain point. So make and take extra caution when throwing yourself to the wind, the choices you make are still your own and you cannot blame it on substance as you’re the one that still had the hand and gumption in consuming it.

Impaired judgment is kind of subjective, unless otherwise unlawful and unkind to another person. You really are still aware of what’s happening, just rather quite lazy in response to your inner ethics and morals, your judgment is quite sharp when you intentionally take that impulsive swig of whatever concoction it is that passes your lips. And you know and understand the outcome, you’ve been there before. Seems like you continue to soar over your options still, choosing to be as blind as a bird attempting to fly to that otherworld reflected in that window glass. Unfortunately, that illusionary world will have you smacking yourself with immediate regret and pain. You do have better eyes and a better brain than a bird. Think twice, otherwise be a bird brain, it’s your choice.

Here’s a little diddy for you:

And if you chose 3. Cannon…

Bam. Stretching yourself thin you are reaching for ways to ground your profession, your path, your passion. Explosions of energy pass through you but still seems like you’re not quite hitting your target.

Do you aim your weapon before firing it? or do you ruthlessly fire all over the place hoping that eventually that ball will land in a spot where might be considered a target? Consider for a moment, your intentions. It doesn’t hurt to take a few extra moments to be meticulous about where you want to land, you don’t have to be rife with perfection either, but knowing where you want to land and perhaps an idea of how you’ll get there will be a tremendous help to you.

Take Young Frankenstein for thought, he wanted to succeed so badly, yet he overlooked some major details in his process, he seemed to skip ahead to the fun part, not realizing his monster human got an abnormal brain instead of the one he intended. Please don’t end up with an abnormal brain!
But seriously, he really did have somewhat good intentions didn’t he? or at least this insane idea that he’d recreate life as we know it. All I’m saying is, be careful what you aim for, you may just get exactly what you intended in the first place, in a sense, however overlooking some details will have you winding up in a bit of a mess where you will be taking some time to untangle yourself from. Know that you can hit your target if you just take a bit of extra time and focus on your intentions and how you want to feel getting there. Exploding all over the place may be fun, but then there will be quite a few pieces to pick up and clean up. Just something to keep in mind.

Here’s a song for that driven energy!:

As always, the Doc is here if you need.

Love and Guts,
Doc G.

Goreblot Fortune Friday

Happy Friday everyone! Here is the latest instalment of Goreblot’s Fortune Friday. Think of an issue that you would like to address or need guidance in and then choose one (or more) of the roman numerals I-III, or an object that appeals to you under them (as pictured) and scroll down to find your corresponding fortune!


A little note on guidance fortunes: These are by no means THE answer to all your problems. The messages are offerings of a form of inspiration to help you realize yourself what changes you need to focus on. If something keeps popping up for you, perhaps it’s time to really zero in on that and work on it. If you’d like to get more personal guidance, I offer personal readings as well in my Etsy store.

On to the fortunes 😀


If you chose I:

I. Desire for acceptance. Need for affirmation. Longing for attention, or longing to find your tribe. Listen to the issues and struggles you keep banging your head against. Be aware of growth in stillness. Ground your feet into the earth. How can you deal with the issues that keep coming up? The answers are always there, its just a matter of sitting still for long enough and listening to them. ~An excellent phrase I got from one of my Yogi Tea bags (yes, silly tea bags have messages too), “Share your strengths, not your weaknesses.” ~
What’s your story that you keep telling people? Or what’s the story you keep telling yourself? How can you spin it to make it feel good for you? Embellish it, make it into a grand mythos. Branch out of your organ meat. Tell a tall tale authentic to you and/or of authentic you. You can only get authentic for yourself. To start, look at the beginning, maybe find a catch phrase, create an intro, paint a beautiful picture of the scenes that are glued together with you gliding along in them. Represent yourself strongly and you will come off as strong and most importantly, you will feel strong. Puff up your chest proudly to the sky. Now’s not the time to be apologetic of what you have to offer. And don’t be apologetic of who you are and what you do. Offer a ridiculous smile that will infect anyone who dare make eye contact with you.

*Make sure to warm up before practicing any kind of stretching and practice with care to your body if you are new to yoga* suggested Yoga pose medicine: Mountain Pose

If you chose II:

II. The skinny vs. fat episode. How one projects their own set of problems on another. Jealousy of what someone assumably is endowed with. What cultural tags go on certain body types. It’s quite the obsession. That feeling that the other person has it easy or somehow is priveleged. A skinny body means fuck all, just as a fat body means fuck all – it’s culturally wrapped in stigma, and distaste, but ultimately it’s up to you to decide how much you want to internalize it’s functions (the labels). Being one or the other should not reflect you as a person. If you are focusing on and negating a body type because you feel you’ll never be like that, you are amplifying and reinforcing these culturally input stigmas and stereotypes, you are feeding into that system and you are reinforcing it into yourself so that it becomes this block. Projections will bounce off each other, you project your assumption onto others openly, the energy of that gets passed around in one big fucking circle jerk. The point is, everybody has their own set of issues of what brought them to where they are. A body shape is only one aspect to a person’s life, it’s not an entire translation, unless that is the person’s entire focus for the rest of their life. Assumptions about appearance will always be there. I encourage you to try to get past the stickiness of it. There’s more to a person than just their appearance. A whole history, a set of situations and a slew of characteristics streaming in their bloodline which got them to where they are, which got them here to where they are today. If you could look at someone’s entire journey, you’ll see it took them a set of their own unique challenges and set of circumstances to get where they are and to realize it. Don’t fall into the trap of comparison. Importance in these issues is coming forward in sharing, being open and honest with yourself and others and your own abilities and if you’re unhappy, look at what adjustments would help you on your journey. Instead of focusing on what makes you unhappy, focus on your own unique challenges and be humble about them. Your challenges are yours and no one can recognize them but you. You have something really cool and awesome to weave in your web of discoveries about your self. See that and own it.

*Make sure to warm up before practicing any kind of stretching and practice with care to your body if you are new to yoga* suggested Yoga pose medicine: Half Lord of the Fishes pose

If you chose III:

III. Passion lost. Directionless, no affirmations or inspiration of where to go. Little to no give. Apathetic. What do? It’s a continuous battle to strive or even want to strive for something when there’s no play, no site goal, no encouragement or anything to pump forward. In these times, it’s pertinent to find something that will stick you to progression. It’s easy to forget drive when there’s no vehicle around to steer. So, let me inspire you to find that vehicle. Try getting out and dancing, singing, draw or paint, focus on finding somewhere to play. You haven’t just let yourself play in a while have you? When was the last time you just let loose? And I’m talking about just letting yourself go, allowing yourself some silliness without the fuss of have to’s and perfection. Balance is key to remembering passion or finding passion. Look at the pyramid of Mind, Body, Spirit – all three need to be present in order to navigate life harmoniously. If you’re lacking in one aspect, for instance, you’re body is strong but your mind is weak, find a way to give your mind a workout. Train yourself up. Often times when you start throwing yourself into an aspect that is out of balance, the other aspects can also strengthen with it. Your spirit is low? maybe working on something physical will bring you back to some awareness, bring you back into your mind. It’s no lie when people say they need to go for a run to clear their heads, there really is something to it. Find something to plunge yourself into, even if the other aspects are kicking and screaming, everything will eventually teeter to a balancing point. And if you stumble, that’s alright, because that is part of the process. So allow yourself play, allow yourself to orient yourself to building new skill sets too. Play brings discovery, find out what you can discover simply by giving it a go 😉

*Make sure to warm up before practicing any kind of stretching and practice with care to your body if you are new to yoga* suggested Yoga pose medicine: Tree Pose

Try taking your medicine this week daily and see what things open up for you. Even if you do your pose once or twice, it’s better than none at all. And let me know how you feel!

Love and guts,
Doc G.

Goreblot Fortune Friday Featuring The Gloomth and the Cult of Melancholy!

For this coming fortunes I asked my friend Taeden from Gloomth to provide the words. Last week I was on a bit of a hiatus, honestly needing a sorting out of myself as I constantly do, and concocting what to do next with Goreblots. I’m taking on more dance classes and I’m on the road to enrolling in yet another certification for fitness, so this is occupying some time and brain power.

Here are the choice words chimed in by Taeden!
1. Thaumaturgic 2. Eidolon 3. Aberrant. Choose your word(s) and tomorrow, your guidance fortune will be revealed!

Happy almost Friday and for some of you, long weekend! I haven't been as active on this account because I have been busy being active – dancing, studying, all that jazz. So! Here is this week's fortune Friday featuring @thegloomth ! I asked Taeden, the head honcho, to pick 3 words for this week's fortune forecast. Pick a word or two or three, and tomorrow your fortune will be revealed to you in Paintomancy Goreblot fashion. In the meantime, check out Gloomth's amazing fashion on the Insta and web! Brand spanking new collection! As pictured here in the photo I butcher collaged 😆 model @tifferknee Have a wonderful day! #gloomthandthecultofmelancholy #gloomth #goreblot #goreblots #paintomancy #divination #foretune #psychic #tarot #oracle #psychicreading #freepsychicreading #chooseyourownadventure #existentialism

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There’s some exciting stuff happening with Gloomth as of late and I feel lucky to be close friends with such a strong creative gal as I get to have a little inside scoop before things are released. So in case you aren’t familiar with Gloomth, they are an alternative lolita brand of clothing. I say alternative because it doesn’t necessarily have to be ‘goth’ or full on lolita. What’s great about Gloomth clothing is you can integrate your own style with the pieces and make your own unique personal brand that expresses you or perhaps one of your alter egos or characters.

It’s a challenge to be different, especially when it comes to sticking out fashion wise. And what I constantly learn and get reminded of from Gloomth and the other weirdos I know, is to be comfortable doing you whatever that entails. For me, it’s an interesting mixture of trying out different outfits that don’t necessarily blend in with the norm, to sometimes wanting to be invisible depending on the day. When I actually do get into outfit making mindfully, I feel my day or evening has more of a sense of purpose and intention to it. Choosing clothing really is like choosing your own uniform, especially if you have the luxury of wearing whatever you want to your job. Even within the guidelines, there’s always a way to slip in your uniqueness. When you wear something that feels right to you, it’s fun, and it feels awesome and overall, don’t you just feel like you are in your own more? Powerful even?

Yea. You’ve got the power, so don’t forget to embrace that.

Now, if your fancy is tickled, I encourage you to check out Gloomth’s *Brand New* collection called Ghost Story. Some luvely pieces in there that may whisper a ghostly song to your vampire soul 😉

Lastly, but not leastly, if you are local to the Toronto area, I also encourage you to check out Gloomth’s event the Haunted Tea Party! This is an excellent chance to bust out your very bests, it does so happen it lands on a Sunday, and be elegantly social, or a spooky wallflower, whatever floats your boat and meet the Gloomth team and other interesting, wonderful oddballs. It’s not to be missed! Tickets are limited, so I suggest you grab yours while you can. AND it’s being hosted at a very gorgeous, ghostly Victorian museum home.
Details here: http://www.gloomth.com/teaparty.html

Stay tuned for Fortune Fridays tomorrow!

Love and Guts,
Doc G.

Goreblot Fortune Friday with Harley R. Pageot

Short brief intro – This week I asked my friend Harley R. Pageot to provide the words and music for this week’s paintomancy instalment. I met Harley back in 2010/11 when I was graduated from OCAD and trying to find my way as an artist. I came across an ad somewhere online about submitting poster art to this group called Broken Arts. Harley was a co-founder of the group, but ultimately became the leader and very well organized organizer of all it’s events. After doing my first poster for them, I somehow got integrated into being a member of the group and started going to meetings and helping out at the events. I am so warmed to have been a part of that movement, being a part of the creative music scene in Oshawa and to be a part Broken Arts. Serious lasting connections were made and I am so thankful to have met the people I did through that time.

If you want to check out what Harley is up to these days, he is founder of Fallen Love Recordshttp://fallenloverecords.com/ where you can find events that are happening. And he also has an Etsy store where he sells excellently written zines about his interests and personal life https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/harleyrpageot?ref=l2-shopheader-name
He’s also a future author! You can find him on Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and Instagram, give him a follow!

Anyways, on to the Fortune Friday Goreblot!
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The words choices are: 1. Nonchalant 2. Obsequious 3. Cascading
Choose a word, and scroll on down to find your corresponding fortune. And I highly recommend listening to your song medicine! a fine choice selection by Harley!

If you chose 1. Nonchalant

1. Nonchalant. Hey smooth sailor, you’ve been here before haven’t you? Strutting around like nothing effects you or affects you. That’s ok. However, preventative measures are never a bad thing and the minor embarrassment it might cause you far outweighs the dire circumstances of something left uncaught. What runs in the family genetically is something you may want to pay attention to and don’t be naive into thinking that it does not effect you and that you are above that. It’s ok to be afraid of truths, afraid of facts, but don’t get caught up in what it means. Sickness does not make you a weak person, but denial however, will make you sicker. You deny and ignore any bits of information that might be useful to you, you’re just going to delay something that might need more immediate attention. It’s up to you ultimately what you decide, but what is dignity but a mere social stance, an image we try to bear to hide a weakness or a vulnerability. We love to idolize others so much and in turn we wish for ourselves to have that same sort of treatment. To make a mark. But how much of it matters, how much of yourself are you sacrificing on this principle? What are you putting off to check because you are afraid of a little embarrassment? What are you afraid of facing or admitting to? Now, I would bet that digging into these seemingly uncomfortable places, investigating, would be very beneficial right now and that letting go of an idea of how you hold yourself in some regard will be the hardest thing to do. Ultimately, letting go of that already shifting idea, I bet will be really freeing for you. Take a chance, you’re only a human meat sack after all. *wink*

Music selection by Harley Pageot, fortune pairing by Doc: Do I Love You by Frank Wilson

If you chose 2. Obsequious

2. Obsequious. A gentle inquiry; how is you? what is you? What you are now has nothing to do with what you were and what you might have been. Be gentle, you tender flesh flame. You stand alone feeling. Feeling your feelings, feeling your body, all the organs surrounding your skeleton frame. You have mild aches, a yearning for something fresh. New light shines a different ray, casts a different shadow, refracts a different scattering of rainbow beams. Humour your beats as you try out different drums. Play and then play some more. Any odd and delightful opportunities come your way, say yes to them. No time to be suspicious and judgmental, no. Enter into new things with a sense of wonder, with an explorer’s eye. You’re the Indiana Jones of your world out on an adventure, out to get that relic and jump through all sorts of boobie traps. Happy Mercury Retrograde ~ expect things to get silly and be ok with it, as you have no control over it anyways. I imagine you will find some interesting artefacts along the way. Prepare to be unprepared as some interesting things come along your way.

Music selection by Harley Pageot, fortune pairing by Doc: Dinner Date by Diet Cig

If you chose 3. Cascading

3. Cascading. Silent violence, silent scream, urging to get out. Caught in a nebulous bubble. Caught in an endless fall against beliefs. Waves ripple, adhere to the nipple to suck some life from that hateful teat you resent. It gives you some sustenance but barely. You want to chew it off, spit it out and bury it. So much hate bubbling inside, your teeth grind at something and you may not even notice. You are under the grind of doing what you think you should, wearing that layer thin, taking in empty, nutrient-less waste. Hate feelings then turns into desperate tears, like trying to run on empty fuel, the energy sputters out what’s left is a release, a mad cry, a wondrous waterfall. My dear, be kind to yourself. Know what you are feeding yourself and what’s harming you. What belief systems are you adhering to that’s making your jaw clench? what foods are you eating that’s lacking colour and nutrients? Lastly, what are you taking in from social media, your social networks that is not serving you? For the good of your health, let it go.

Music selection by Harley Pageot, fortune pairing by Doc: When She Kisses Me by Jonathan Richman

Enjoy your weekend.

<3 Doc G.

A Garbageface Goreblot Fortune Friday!

Happy Full Moon in Scorpio folks! Also, Happy Earth Day! and of course happy happy Friday! This week, I asked the Garbageface to contribute 3 words for me to divine in Goreblot paintomancy fashion.

Here is the Garbage fortunes for this week, featuring GARBAGEFACE!

The choices art: 1. Scarab 2. Candle 3. Yarn
Choose what your guts are telling you, and read further to see what your fortune has to say.

1. Scarab

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Skipping pages in a book is like skipping over tiny moments of experience. You may glaze over the important nuances. You’re trying to push and plan for perfection, make something full proof with no mistakes. Avoidant of circumstances which might have you unexpectedly on your toes. All this preparation to save yourself from a feeling you might get, a judgment you think you might receive. But how much are you actually doing? How much time are you carving just frantically planning and thinking? We always tend to run away from feelings, even and especially the ones we imagine. It’s the uncertainty. We’re often the most agitated when we’re waiting forcing ourselves forward, we can’t sit still because of nervous anticipation. How hard it is to sit with that feeling, to find a way to ground ourselves when our minds can’t focus, when we’re racing and grappling for those few steps to make it less flighty and more real. The unknown, really. That’s what we flee from. We try to know it, we think we may know it having our abilities to project ourselves into the future and we project into our futures by reflecting on our pasts, our collected, nostalgic experiences educating us. Why is it so hard to experience the moment as we’re wont to tell ourselves to do these days? this very moment? because it takes a lot of concentration? no. It’s the antithesis of holding onto every thought. It’s recognizing what is in front of you right now. It’s knowing that those unknowns you are waiting for can actually wait for you and you can let them go until you see them and then before you know it, they’re no longer unknown.


2. Candle.

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Prescribe a passion to your life and don’t be afraid to love it hard. With this passion, you will have fights, you will cuddle, you will break-up and then get back together. Passion doesn’t necessarily go away, it just steers in so many courses. Of course you can have many multiple passions and they may have varying intensities and involvements with you. Passion has such a strong presence in life, a fruit was even named after it. Passion, can it be lost? Sure. There are moments of it fizzling out. Burn out happens often, expect that, know that. And those times of wondering what’s next or what’s the point, those are the times of self reflection. When the flame fizzles out and darkness envelopes you, notice the quiet, re-establish your surroundings, your body and your tendencies. There is nothing wrong with contemplation in a quiet dark place. Reconnect with your body particles, your flesh. Passion can take a break. It can be quiet or not there, it can change. it can morph and it will light up differently every time you return to it with a new face, a changed face. When you relax the skin of your face in some corpse pose, looking at the back of your eyelids, what do you see? poke the middle of your forehead, what do you feel? No one can take passion away from you. We often confuse passion with competitiveness. We want to compete our passion to someone else’s. Know that your passion is yours. No one else’s. It’ll strive differently, have a different cadence, it’ll be a different colour or shape. Know that to preserve your passion, you must tend to the flame and if it’s to be blown out take care to mind the wick, preserve it in wax, commit to this and it will last longer. Commitment is what sees your passion through, in darker passionless times, tend to what feeds it, what nourishes it even when it’s hard to lift a finger. A book you read, an art exhibit you attended, a concert you went to. Go to something, look, consume, ignite again when you’re ready.


3. Yarn

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Play entanglement. Personal weave. Intimate gesture. Intricate design. You can sit all night working on your project, your craft, spinning those fibres, creating tangles on purpose to make yourself a puzzle to bury yourself into. Like the Rubix cube, your squares have to be a bit mismatched until you get it all lined up. It’s that reaching for fabrication, building those connections, looking for that sweet spot to produce the myelin, a network of brain tubes wrapping and growing to create something learned. That sweet spot to take your craft further. At first the feeling is resistance, procrastination to focus. Please push the anxieties that cling to sir procrastination aside, they’re dead weight. There’s something quite beautiful about fibrous threads, they can knit together in so many ways – weaving, felting, crocheting, sewing stitches all different patterns but similar structures in that they crossover. The threads hold each other together, bound by knots, laying over each other, tightening in a ball, tightening. Your creative endeavours are calling for cross reference, for a different approach. It’s calling for a bit of a mess to happen so a new entanglement can be found, a new network of knots and stitches, knitted fibres becoming one mass of something shapely, if anything. And then things will line up like the matched up sides of that tricky algorithm of the Rubix cube. Simply put, things will need to look fucked up, be fucked up, and this will happen right before things start to lace together. The more fuckery, the more fiddling, the more attention to finding the right place. Allow yourself to submerge in this beautiful process of struggle. Struggle really is your friend.


Have a good one! Make sure to get some moonshine while you can, it probably has some source of vitamin in it. And until next time….

Love and guts,
Doc G.

Intro Goreblot Fortune Fridays with Special guest

Today, I’d like to introduce my first Feature Goreblot Fortune Friday with musical talent, doom experimental rapper, GARBAGEFACE.  I met Karol Orzechowski back in 2009/10 when I went on an artist specific guided tour  to NYC by METHINKS productions, he co-guided the bus tour along with peer Ryan Ringer, and Alex Bowron.  It was one of those trips that made a lasting impression and lasting connections with other fellow artists I still stay in touch with.  Seeing GARBAGEFACE for the first time perform in a couple of awesome venues in NYC among all the richness of creativity in such a busy city, had me hooked from the beginning.

Karol is doing a lot of awesome things in the Peterborough, Ontario music scene these days and he regularly tours.  Keep watch for his new album coming soon in JUNE 2016.

We’ve got a whammy of a Friday this one being a full moon in Scorpio and also Earth Day! I have a sale going on at my Etsy store, all items will be 22% off.  Just use the coupon code: BEAVERMOON22 upon purchasing.


Also pretty crazy news to hear that music legend Prince has passed away today at the tender young age of 57.  It’s been a weird year.

Without further a due, here are the choices for this week’s Goreblot Fortune Friday! Words contributed by GARBAGE face himself!

All you have to do is choose one or more of these words, follow your gut and tomorrow your fortune will be revealed to you.

Goreblot Fortune Friday is a series of FREE readings I do every Friday that I started on Instagram.  The idea is a lot like other divination methods.  Inspired by the Rorschach inkblot test, I put a twist on it in that the inquirer/patient picks the words and I produce a painted fortune via paintomancy along with a written guidance to complete it.  With these FREE readings I supply a choice of 3 words, sometimes images, that inquirers can choose from.  And on Friday, the Goreblot Fortune painting is revealed!

It’s fun and interesting and I hope to connect with more souls.  If you check out my Etsy store, you will find a couple of reading offerings there to get your VERY own personal CUSTOMIZED Goreblot fortune painting.  Getting your own reading makes things more personal and specific to you and if you’re familiar with Tarot or oracle decks, it’s in similar vein in that it offers guidance to whatever situation you are inquiring about.  And I’m running a Full MOON sale! so you can start out by getting your first reading with %22 OFF!

So let’s see what your guts have to say.  Give the free reading a try <3

Love and Guts,